Holy Batman ~ she's ALIVE!

I know i've been MIA.. i'm so so sorry :(

Been living it up and uh.. shh.. but myspacing like everyone else has been..

tonight i was really bothered cause my 'friend' josh.. totally dissed me when i needed his help (i'm not one to ask for help) for a girl (who's a mutual friend) that he's crushing on.

Thing that bothers me more? SHE did too!

So then he finally came to help me but didn't get job done and was a bit irritated about it..

whatever..

maybe i am overreacting but i really thought we were all friends.. but i'm finding out that i'm the only one who's trying to be one.. they're just being 'nice'..

and no longer am i going to tell josh to lay off becky cause apparently.. she enjoys the attention and maybe says stuff to him without me knowing.. so she's 'egging' him on.. so be it.

New York Minute...

Well I am "back" from New York..

I have so much to say but being booted off the computer..

My laptop is in the living room still 'in box'.. so tomorrow after work (and a nap).. I'm setting up the wireless.. than probably will blog blog blog away! :)

I missed you guys!

Long update before New York...

Sorry for the delay in blogging but you know how it goes.. packing and all that loose end stuff..

Let's see.. what have I been up to?

• Went to UW Volleyball game on Friday night.. totally got me wanting to play again (with Amber and Becky)
• Got to meet a cool friend (another Josh) but he seems pretty down to earth and all that jazz..
• Got to get all the 'warm' fuzzy feelings about my friends & life put out in the open
• Saw "jarhead" (liked it except seeing "Chicken Little" beat it by like $10MIL?)
• My laptop shipped from Dell today.. YAY! it'll probably arrive while I'm in NY but what can ya do??
• Had to order my ipod online since they were out of it in stores.. let's hope it arrives in one piece. The engraving went to hell in a handbasket but let's not discuss that!
• Went crazy Friday night and sent an email to an old hottie from high school.. he actually responded! So now i'm like "WHAT DO I DO??" (I sent him pics since he said he didn't recall who i was or a face to the name)
• Got reinvited to Apple CUP.. I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS!!!

Last but not least.. getting on a plane to NYC tomorrow morning.. what more is there to say but "wow?"

I am nervous. excited.. anxious.. hoping that i can handle it without freaking out.. and so happy at the same time to be coming home (even though I haven't even left yet).

I think the reality of knowing that I have people who are so happy for me and can't wait for me to return home w/ my pictures and stories too!

I did have a weird very realistic dream about the ex this morning.. but I'm choosing to ignore it. I just can't keep going back & forth between the 'moving on' and the 'slipping back'.

I've finally embraced that my life is hectic.. it always will be. It's always changing.. if it wasn't.. who would I be? And that I'm the girl who's loving life and being able to spend as much time as i can with my 'girls' and happy.

As much as I thought I'd miss J and someday would give my left arm to be back with him.. now I think "WHY?"

I'm now able to call the shots and be able to say "wow.. he's hot" without feeling bad inside that i was still hung up on someone else..

Anyway, enough late night rambling.. good night to everyone.. hope this update makes sense! ha ha ha..

I love you girls.. and boys.. i like ya! :)

Friday update...

I really don't have time for this but figured.. what the heck? :)

Last night was interesting to say the least.. I was feeling a bit down yesterday (for those I was chatting with at work that figured it out).

I'm in that "PMS/Nervousness/Insecure" mood that I get into occasionally. Not to say that I'm not out of it today (I pretty much am!)

Anyway, I was feeling weird and a bit resentful at work cause these girls in the office don't appear to like me.. and it was hurting my feelings. I'm over it.

So I'm on myspace (of course).. and who do I stumble upon? Jeremy.. and Casey. Justin's two 'bestest' homies.. and I stared at their profile for a while.. and finally I sent Jeremy a very casual message.. just saying "Hey.. how's it going? Saw Olivia on here and then found you. Hope all is well. julia"

I didn't add the real thought of 'I don't expect you to respond at all, etc, etc'.. well I log back in after an hour or so.. and he requested me to add him as a 'friend'.

I did.. and sent him a message (he was online) and he never responded.. oh well, guess he wants me in his 'stable' of friends.. Casey I'm leaving alone.. as much as I like him.. and he's only got 2 friends (other than Tom).. but he's Justin's roomie and I'm not touching that.. it's bad enough Jeremy now can see how many things I'm "up to" on myspace (aka.. photos to blogs, etc)

Anyway, Becky calls amongst all of this.. she sounds a bit upset.. and I asked what was wrong.. she says that her boyfriend just called to break up with her for real..

To backup.. Becky is essentially me circa 2002.. (for those who can remember way back then.. we're old!)

Anyway, she's been dating this guy for about 3yrs.. they've only been the real 'serious' ones in their lives.. talking about settling down, etc.. well he's getting scared and saying "He wants to date other people".. you know how well that goes over?

She's taking it hard yet also easy.. he tried this about 2wks ago.. then called her up this week and said "I'm sorry.. I miss you so much. Come visit me in Pullman".. only to call her Thursday night (day before she leaves) to say "No i changed my mind.. I want out"..

I told her just like me (22yr old me).. I had the best chance of my life.. and I didn't take it.. cause I thought "I love him.. I don't/can't live without him".. and my life is still way awesome.. but sometimes I do wonder where I'd be if I hadn't stayed with him?

Try telling that to me at 22 though.. not until *I* really realized it.. did I truly ever walk away and never look back.

She's trying to tell me same thing.. she can't say she'd walk away, etc.. I told her at least he's in Pullman and not booty call away up street like mine was.

But she was calling to grovel about coming out with us again tonight.. I said of course.. I just feel bad for her that she's having to go through this.. specially at a time when her career is about to take off.. and yet somehow, that reminds me of me too! :)

All in all, I'm hoping that in helping her get through this (cause I know she will).. that it'll help me too.

I've been feeling a bit low about the whole "missing" certain things about relationships.. and now I think back.. I can't imagine why.. I mean, I do miss little things.. but I also don't.

Jeremy's profile on myspace (he's been on since last yr it looks like; closet one.. he never mentioned it to me EVER).. he had a pic of the 'boys'.. and Justin was on it.. and I didn't even like blink.. aka.. no heartbreak or heartache.. jst a "oh yea.. justin of course!"

It's not to say I still don't find him cute/attractive, whatever.. but his personality has made me dislike him a bit.. and it's sad that I can't talk to his friends cause he'd flip out.. specially his 'roommate'.

Anyway, enough wasting my blog speaking of him.. hope everyone has a good weekend! I get the house "all to myself!" .. YAY! :)

Too much wisdom?

Is there such a thing??

About 5 years ago or so.. I discovered that my wisdom teeth were finally coming in.

Doc took some x-rays. Told me I had a total of SIX.. Two way up top and the normal 'four'.

So we only took out 3 since the other one was buried and top 2 "were probably never going to come down"

Fast forward three years.. two were aching me.. so I had to go to an oral surgeon this time cause they were compacted.

So if you're keeping score, that's 5 that's been out..

Guess what I felt yesterday when I woke up?

THE FINAL ONE.. cutting through my upper right jaw area..

I'm dying.. how can one person have THREE oral surgeries for the same thing??

And I have to get it done cause it's paining me.. PLUS.. I don't want it to be pushing my teeth after all the work the braces did..

DAMNIT! :(

Sugar & Spice...

So I spent tonight trying to find an I-pod as well as how to now spend all the cash that's been given to me.

This term is used loosely of course. It's $$ that is allocated to all sorts of things that are 'needed'.

Aka.. paying off all sorts of bills or misc. things that I've done over the past year or so.

It's amazing. They weren't joking when they said they discontinued the I-Pod mini's in lieu of the I-pod Nano.

It's TINY.. Becky brought it into work.. I couldn't believe how small it was. I was all scared to touch it!

And now the $199 model only holds like 500 songs so I'd have to pay $250 + tax to get the 4G model. More so reason to nag BM to give me his Mini that he doesn't want/need anymore.

BUT.. I guess on some level.. if it's being discontinued, they will no longer support it and all will go towards the Nano.

Becky loves hers.. so it's not like it's had any issues.. but I guess it just means having to spend dough on it.

My brother informed me tonight that he & Mary are going to Ocean Shores this weekend so I will have the house "all to myself".

Funny thing is, it's not like I'm going to have people over.. ha ha.. although only one person came to mind for a hot second (and then just as quickly vanished).

How sad is it that I have no one to "come over?" :)

I am getting my hair 'did' on Saturday.. prolly just have her trim it and re-do the color. I wanted it to look like this last time.. didn't work! :(

Something a little different...

Ok.. so I'm going to try to upload html photos! :)


Jake Gyllenhall..

Can't wait to see jarhead!

Yay.. it finally wroked.. Don't know why it was erroring for a bit (I do same w/ myspace!)

Anyway, life has been good.. Been a few bits & hits here and there of minor drama but nothing that your girl can't get through! :)

And btw, I know he was in "good girl" but damn. don't remember him being hot like that.. when I saw this pic (it's a tad bit more sexy than the one w/ his shirt off, altho can i say someone's been working out?) :)

I like how his eyes look like he's staring into yours.. sigh.. i'm pathetic! :)